I was so busy, and wrapped up with work and going out that, I didn’t say happy birthday to two of my best friends birthday, I don’t deserve friends like them! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MY BEAUTIFUL GIRLS! and SORRY from the bottom of my heart! I LOVE YOU!
So basically this has been rough to think about. I went from having a busy social life, plenty of friends, now to losing everyone… everything. Or at least it feels that way, I met some great people and got really close. Almost family close, actually that is the case. So much time we got so close, best friend close, brother close. We had everyone going that he was our bro, we even forgot he wasn’t really our brother hahah. Well long story short I am very VERY UPSET! ;( He will be leaving to Arizona in a month….It’s going to be so weird, so different without him. I don’t wanna think about it. I’m gonna feel like I am missing something, apart of me. The 3 musketeers are breaking up… the crew is ending :( the family is falling… this just made me ball. I broke. I mean it’s been like 7 months but we all clicked and bonded and it worked, since we probably spend 5 or 6 days a week together! He has our backs, protects us, inside jokes, nicknames, memories, etc…. I will miss you little one (that’s our nickname for him, only we call him that me and mar (the “sister”) Luis I love you! and we know you LOVE US! GOOD LUCK in Arizona, don’t replace or forget us. You will be fine, stay golden brother don’t worry about us<3 and now my real brother will be leaving in July to go to the Army I am so proud of him, and happy that he is doing good and it’s what he wants. At the same time I of course and upset, I’m gonna miss him, we are the closest in my house, we tell each other everything. We are all growing up. Be safe bro! I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART! take care, and don’t forget we care and we will be here waiting. All these friends have left me and this isn’t as bad as when I lost some of my once closest friends who I’ve known for a longer time and no offense I was not this sad, sure it stung but I’m over it. I feel like I have no one :( like everyone I love and care about leaves, family and best friends… (maybe I need to start over)
Since I haven’t been on it what seems FOREVER! here is a little update/ just spilling out my guts because I don’t have many people to talk to. They are all so consumed with their own lives, which is fine as long as you stop pretending to care and be there for me when your really not, so I can just move on with my life too. It just sucks… oh well. So the guy I had a huge crush on, who I probably should be with because we click and he is a genuinely nice guy one of the nicest I’ve met, but I may have sent him in the arms of another…but I like him enough to see him happy, curse me. Then a guy I call pipes, I do NOT get him! In person he is all over me, hugging, clinging, talking, saying cute things, but when I text him, he NEVER texts back. When I invite him somewhere he will say yes he’ll go and doesn’t show up! OVER IT! Now there is a new guy now, he really isn’t my type. He’s super sweet, into me, cute, but Idk…. well I’m hanging with him again tonight before I get wasted!!!!!! at 50 cent draft night with my girl! Work is HELL! I went off on my manager hardcore, didn’t get fired though….looking for my own place and to go back to school. Trying to help my bro at the moment. He is having a really hard time, he’s been down on his luck, and I really care so I am there for him. Just so much is going on and so many thoughts, people from the past, fights, memories. I AM GONNA EXPLODE!