Starting fights, drinking almost every night, crying, thinking really hard, pushing people away, not sleeping, I am going INSANE. Why am I doing this. I am just over everyone and everything and I don’t know how to cope. Hoping it’s a phase. Hoping I can get it together and think straight. Things might go right for a little but as always it ends in frustration and hurt. I can’t trust anyone or anything. That is no way to live!