Can I just tell you my dream? I feel the need to since it was so CRAZY/Random! Well it started off with me going to the concert with a friend who isn’t going in real life. At the building my mom had dropped us off and this stuck up girl that she knew said something and I got mad and started a fight with her. Well that diffused my mom left and me and my friend had really close seats the first band was Paramore (who isn’t going.) We were having fun and all of a sudden a couple comes up to me, they knew my name and was talking shit about a really close friend so we start fighting my friend pulls me a part and was like it is starting! So we are having a great time and above us are (old friends from my grade school) now they start talking shit about me, I of course responded to it. Then she says my dad lost his job, so I go home and it is to a new nice house and their my mom is with an interior designer spending money. I ask her about it and she says, she didn’t know. My dad calls we ask turns out it was true. I left to go to target with my sister to go get something. I had a little boy with me, I don’t know who he is. Well, my sister leaves and as we are also a girl with a gun says get back in their. Of course I listen as I am walking she is playing with the little boy I had and being so nice. I turn to her and say do you have kids, you would make a great mom. She responds,”no, I don’t I like them, but I don’t know….” At this point I realized she was a good person, so I tried to tell her not to do this I will help her. At that point the cops came surrounded the place and she quickly pushed us in the building along with the others. I cried to her,”Please do whatever you want, but let the boy live, don’t hurt him. She agreed, then my triflin ass, was like,”he is the only child and his dad is dead he has no one to take care of him. (lies ) so she said she would let me go as well. The cops burst in and me and the boy are the first out as we here gun shots going off. A few made it, some didn’t we are sitting in the target parking lot with blankets getting treated for injuries, and I was like what time is it, they were like 10:00. I jumped up and was like Eminem is playing I’m missing him. The cops are like are you serious? you just were in this traumatizing situation and almost died! I said,” Didn’t you here me EMINEM! If I miss him I might as well have died!” they laughed I ran to my car, I couldn’t find it and was freaking out. I spotted my sister and she was pissed about something. (as usual) She would not help me find my car, I was running up and down the lot, I was pissed! Then I woke up :( wasn’t that a crazy dream? kind of a nightmare actually…It felt so real! what does it mean?
I picked up a work shift for tomorrow, DUMB! So I just wanna stay home all day today, but I am meeting with an old friend I miss and haven’t seen. I got my thing from ebay today that I ordered =D I’ve been wanting to cook all day. I am also looking up more colleges. This has been my day so far. =D I kinda like it I know I have a busy weekend ahead of me! this was pointless, I know I just wanted to share lol.
this is how, I am feeling now a days…that I am not myself, I’m out of character etc…Good or bad thing?! letting loose. This song is so fun and empowering! The regular version is better. I’m not a big remix fan.
This isn’t me..I’ve been so weird lately. Then, tomorrow night another one…. WOW I’m either not thinking clearly or, I’m just desperate? Why now, I feel like everyone I know or use to talk to is coming around. I feel gross, I do not condone this. I ‘m gonna do it I haven’t talked myself out of it. Don’t judge me!